..wanted to talk

I wanted to talk to you tonight TV shows coming on and I really think you would’ve liked to of watched. Coming up on three years since you’ve been gone I really do miss you. You’re still a bonehead. Miss you

Happy 2nd Heaven anniversary

You will never be forgotten, John.

YOU TUBE MUSIC PLAYLIST (Public Playlist)

John Bernard 1956-2019 VAL-DAL TRIBUTE

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, BABE.

Happy Earth Birthday.

THANKFUL FOR NEW FRIEND, Diane.

THANKFUL FOR NEW FRIEND, Diane.

I feel this one strongly, The Weekend, Missed You.

Convinced myself to run around with someone else to forget about you
But I can't hold you responsible for the things I do
I said your name by mistake
Played it off like I'm just confused
But I was frontin', lyin' to myself
When I know the truth

Was I missed you
Yes, it's true
I should've known not to let you go, let you go
'Cause I missed you
Baby boo
We could've grown if I held you close, held you close

I hurt myself a hundred times just to feel something in my soul
I kept knocking even though I knew what's behind that door
But then I heard you call my name and it sounded like the sweetest song
You never moved on, you were waiting for me all along

Well, I missed you
Yes, it's true
Should've known not to let you go, let you go
Well, I missed you
Baby boo
We could've grown if I held you close, held you close

Oh, I missed you
Yes, it's true
Should've known not to let you go, let you go
Girl, I missed you
Baby boo
We could've grown if I held you close, held you close
Well, I missed you

self-explanatory

https://play.google.com/music/m/Tykkdjnzgicuxvea64jsazqmete?t=Missed_You_Bonus_Track_-_The_Weeknd

Thinking of YOU, JOHN, on this Thanksgiving

I miss you terribly.

Poem for John on this, his one year anniversary

I've been waiting for John for such a long time.
He never let me go; he was always mine.
Never for a minute did I think the last time was it,
When I found he had died, my heart took a hit.

I used to say to him if we don't wind up together,
This wouldn't make sense; time spent would not be better.
He always told me he didn't know.
As my love for him just continued to grow.

After we broke up, I thought of him a lot.
Other than a few times, I saw him not.
I tried my best to follow his life.
The demons on his back continued the strife.

I call intuition the Holy Spirit, a piece of GOD.
I searched for him feverishly as I was the pea and he was my pod.
My search reached its peak last year in the Spring.
Something was wrong, my tears, did I wring.

I thought to leave my information with a family member.
And then I found out he had died that September.
I don't see a future in my life anymore.
How could they do that, my messages ignored.

I wouldn't have cared how he looked in the end.
When you love someone, your images, they bend,
To the person that you loved best.
I wish I got to prove that test.

Val-Dal
09/26/2020
© 2020

Heaven anniversary approaching

It's only been 8 weeks since I found out John died... & so has a part of me. I am lost. Happiness is described different ways. The one definition that sticks out is it is 1) to have something to do, 2) someone to love, and 3) have something to hope for. I find myself empty. Happy Heaven anniversary, John. I know I am a few days early.

Nicole - I would love for you to contact me. I am trying to make sense of John's life and timeline. It would be very much appreciated.

Miss you ..🙏😟🥺

I'd just seen you...a year ago.. can't believe a year has passed. So much has transpired...💔🤦

Will transfer updated playlist to YT Music befote end of year

Google Play Music is going away soon

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If you haven’t tried YouTube Music yet, you’ll notice that it looks a bit different from Google Play Music, but know that it was built by the same team with the same passion. It also offers more than 65 million official songs, albums, and playlists, as well as many features you love and expect from Google Play Music.

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https://photos.app.goo.gl/fWcvecmxikaDyUVe8

John M. Bernard in his prime

https://photos.app.goo.gl/fWcvecmxikaDyUVe8

Music that makes me think of John

Google Play Music
John Bernard 1956-2019 by Val-Dal

https://play.google.com/music/m/Tsi45zluaroaxm3ejqresq3at7q?t=Run_To_You_-_Bryan_Adams

https://play.google.com/music/m/Te2gxi325xtjqzl6ei45aws2e74?t=Goodbye_My_Lover_-_James_Blunt

https://play.google.com/music/m/Tlhkgfc6rcgupglmb6ssb6nlsyy?t=Could_ve_Been_-_Tiffany

https://play.google.com/music/m/Tljbr5noeqvkmebjkjjtemkdufm?t=Always_Remember_Us_This_Way_-_Lady_Gaga

https://play.google.com/music/m/Thw47xpcukumjkh7v4yhjqyajhq?t=Falling_-_Harry_Styles

Falling, Harry Styles

https://play.google.com/music/m/Thw47xpcukumjkh7v4yhjqyajhq?t=Falling_-_Harry_Styles

Audio Tribute from Val-Dal

https://drive.google.com/file/d/14uzqf0EnlsnzQmdfgYgnU_MFFjWgE0N8/view?usp=drivesdk

Tribute to John from Val-Dal

John was one of 3 siblings. Shortly after his father walked out, his dad died, leaving his Mom & Grandmom to raise John & his 2 siblings. He leaves behind a daughter he loved with all his heart, who strongly resembles him. John was a truck driver for a majority of his working life, yes, even those 18 wheelers. I met John at a TaeKwonDo school, something that came naturally to him. He wasn't book smart but made up for that by being street smart. He was not a "take shit" kind of person. He was very much into working out, loved weight lifting along with TKD. He earned his second degree black belt. John was a soft spoken guy, never an extrovert but he loved to laugh. John's trust had to be earned, not freely given & I got that. There was a bunch of us who always did things together. Once your trust was earned, he knew how to keep things to himself. Want to sit in silence, he was cool with that too. He didn't eat the healthiest; he loved his cheese steaks. John was cool. He came unglued when his Ma died, his uncle and having to mourn his best friends dad, whom he respected, spent time with, and grieved for. John hid his feelings but shared them with me. When he experienced yet another life change, he had a lot of trouble moving forward which ended our relationship. He walked into the darkness & got stuck there. Now knowing there were many who tried to help him, I ask that you remember him at his best & keep him in your prayers. He was a gentleman around me always. For those of us who really knew him, he didn't like himself or how his life was going. I know that now. I regret not being one who tried to set him on the path to the light. I understand there were many who tried. He just got stuck & lost his way. He never found his way back. I wish I could have talked to him one more time, to tell him he was my best friend and he was the love of my life. There has never been anyone since him. Through the years, I often wondered how he was doing. I am heartbroken. If I had known he was in hospice, I would have stayed with him but I wasn't given that opportunity. So I now announce it to the world. John will always be the love of my life, always & forever.

Tribute to John from Val-Dal - audio

https://drive.google.com/file/d/14uzqf0EnlsnzQmdfgYgnU_MFFjWgE0N8/view?usp=drivesdk

Tribute to John from Val-Dal

Recorded with Easy Voice Recorder. Download the app for Android here: https://goo.gl/94E4Om

Oh the things that I’d like to talk to you about!

You’re not gonna believe this, but are Schwarzenegger’s coming out with another Terminator movie. Wrestling has a new Federation starting. Who am I gonna talk to about all of this stuff? I miss you a bunch

Hope Heaven..is ready JB

Hope you made it- I wish you peace- Ill miss you forever-Ill forget you NEVER .... Our friendship was deep ..even far away. I'll keep all the fun conversations....in my memories-luv ya buddy!
Diane